Taxes

I've been reading a lot lately about not becoming stressed or worried. I've known these things for a long time, but I've always struggled at getting to the point where I could truly turn my worries over to God and just let them go. Oh sure, some worries are easy, but the big things, like finances, not so easy.

Last week we found out we owe money on our taxes. A LOT of taxes. Enough that we could not scrape together of the course of a year, enough to pay them. Why? Because we are self-employed, we have a lot of taxes to worry about, we have a lot of deductions too, but this year, it just didn't work out. The problem is, if we owe this year, we can pretty much count on the fact that we will owe as much or more next year.

In the past, finding this out would have made my physically ill, but this time, when I heard this, I was totally relaxed. I just kept thinking "God has always taken care of it, the money will come along". I had no worries. I still have no worries. I am so excited though, I feel like I've finally crossed that hurdle!

Erik on the other hand freaked out about it, he was angry and agitated. Normally once he gets upset, I get upset, but not this time. I stayed totally calm and started looking at what we could do. Because I was calm, he started to calm down, and we were able to formulate a plan to both get these taxes paid and start laying away money for next year's taxes. Although we still have to find out if our plan will work, I have no doubt within me that God will make sure we have what we need.